Why is it that we can remember some things some of the time, but not all things all of the time? Why is memory selective to the situation and the frame of mind? Why does doing certain things trigger certain memories? Why are those memories chosen over others?
Sometimes the memories bring pleasure, and we cherish those over the ones that bring us pain. Still, we remember the ones that bring us pain.
One memory… one moment… triggering the next one.
What was the first one? And how could there ever be a first one?
I feel that I spend so much time looking at where I want to be that I don’t take the time to be thankful for where I am. I have a loving wife that puts her family first. 2 smart, vibrant, creative children. Parents, siblings, in-laws, extended families. Readers and supporters like you. A career (not a job) where I am paid well and challenged. A nice house, car, stuff…Freedom. Independence. Safety. Security. Love. Prosperity. Abundance.
This post is part of a series of posts that was initiated by Barbara of Me My Magnificent Self. In this challenge each blogger writes of their own experience and then highlights the blogger that will be posting the next in the series. For all the original detail please see the January Challenge on Barabra’s own blog and for the next in this series please go to DottaRaphels. I am posting after the insightful, stupendous, marvelous, magnificent madam M. A very tough act to follow. For a full schedule of contributors scroll down to the bottom of this post.
So, what is awakening? I will skip looking up the Webster’s dictionary definition of the word and go to the heart of how I define awakening. To me, being awake is being aware and mindful that reality is deeper than what we perceive on the surface. I keep wanting to assign additional attributes to this that are more feelings than realization of the true nature of things.
“That which makes you think that you are a human is not human. It is but a dimensionless point of consciousness, a conscious nothing; all you can say about yourself is: ‘I am’. You are pure being-awareness-bliss. To realize that is the end of all seeking. You come to it when you see all you think yourself to be as a mere imagination and stand aloof in pure awareness of the transient as transient, imaginary as imaginary, unreal as unreal.”
Do you see yourself only when you look in a mirror? Or do you also see yourself when you look at everything you encounter? Just as a mirror reflects a physical representation of how you view yourself, the world reflects your true nature. Your immediate surroundings represent, in physical form, things that you like. You surround yourself with things that make you happy and things that you think you need to live the life that you think you want.
Your surroundings can be neat or cluttered, also representing the state of your being. You can take actions to change your surroundings by creating or destroying. Your actions reflect your mind state and your reaction to those actions may represent something else entirely. There can be a conflict between the action and the emotion related to that action. That must surely represent that you are out of harmony with yourself (Karma). At this point you have to step back and feel the emotion, but not judge it. With awareness, you can change your actions.
This has been a very involved week at work. I was promoted to manager a few months ago, and I have felt under the wave for a while. We have been completing the testing on a product that I am responsible for and we need to be able to hit a certain date and everything is production ready. On top of this I am interviewing people for my old position and working customer enhancement requests.
This is a lot, and just seeing it all written out makes me realize that. The only thing that is getting me through is constant prioritization of what is to be done now. The top thing for me was getting the product release out the door. This release needs to be stable and support the new features that have been requested by the various groups. At the same time I identify the next priority and try to push it along a little bit. I do that on down the line pushing things along as I see opportunities.
Pretty soon the effort required for my top priority goes down and I am able to shift and expand my focus. My goal is to have a more balanced focus across what I am responsible for instead of trying to focus all energy on one single priority for a long haul. It is a constant re-prioritization, but it should always start in the now. Determine the immediate need, and address that. Then feed and care for the rest.