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Reflection of the Source

If we look on the Self as the ego then we become the ego,

if as the mind we become the mind,

if as the body we become the body.

It is the thought which builds up sheaths in so many ways.

The shadow on the water is found to be shaking.

Can anyone stop the shaking of the shadow?

If it should cease to shake you would not notice the water but only the light.

Similarly to take no notice of the ego and its activities,

but see only the light behind.

The ego is the I-thought.

The true ‘I’ is the Self.

– Ramana Maharshi

We become whatever we look upon.

We see the shaking.

We see the illusion.

That is the way we know it is a reflection.

Without the shaking,

We see the source,

The light.

We do not see the reflection.

The ego is the reflection.

The true ‘I’ is the light


Eternal Present “For the perfect accomplishment of any art, you must get this feeling of the eternal present into your bones — for it is the secret of proper timing.” BY MARIA POPOVA Among the...

For the perfect accomplishment of any art, you must get this feeling of the eternal present into your bones — for it is the secret of proper timing. No rush. No dawdle. Just the sense of flowing with the course of events in the same way that you dance to music, neither trying to outpace it nor lagging behind. Hurrying and delaying are alike ways of trying to resist the present.

~ Alan Watts

Whatever I am doing, that is the process.

This moment, now is what I am doing.

This is the process.

This is now.

The sense of flow.

The grind.

In the zone.

It comes by many descriptions, but it means the same thing.  Total immersion in the moment.  At times of heightened adrenaline, we are pushed into the moment, but this can be achieved with any activity.  Me writing this is me coming into connection with the steam and putting thoughts into actions into keystrokes into words on the screen.  To be totally present is to be totally present in every moment without loss of the flow.  This can be done.  This is what Alan describes.

I have said it before, but I consider him the closest thing to my guru.  He isn’t alive, but his words still speak to me.  I mean, couldn’t a guru transcend death? The appeal of a live spiritual guru is one that can affirm or challenge me.

The Value of Life

I don’t know what happens when I die

I don’t know from direct experience

I don’t know anyone that has died and told me about it

I don’t know heaven

or hell

or any other worlds

other than what is in front of me

If you want to know the value of life, just know it is a brief happening

  • Sadhguru





These are words that only hold the meaning that we provide to them


Consciousness and the world

Mind and body

Thought and form


Form does not give rise to consciousness

Does consciousness give rise to form?


Conscious should drive and create the world.  The world does not create consciousness. – Sadhguru


Thought projects form

Thought perceives form

Thought gives rise to the physical interpretation

But does thought hit against something to realize form?


Interpretation must have something to interpret

Perception must have something to perceive

Or is it just banging against itself?

Thought perceives/interprets thought

And gives rise to form


Consider this: in our everyday state of consciousness, we regard our body to be extremely limited. What’s more, we feel that this body is the major source of all our sufferings — the feelings of pain arise in the body, the fear of illnesses and death are intimately connected to the body, etc. On the other hand, we think bright, encouraging thoughts about our minds, and our imaginative capabilities. Whilst the body is weak, limited and prone to breaking down easily, the mind is sovereign, it is our sanctuary and can give us a glimpse of the victory over our humiliating conditions. Our conscious thoughts seemingly know no bounds — we can fantasize to our hearts content about ideal conditions, distant lands, nice, heartwarming events and circumstances. We can easily imagine pigs with wings — something that’s impossible for the nature itself to accomplish. What can possibly stop our imagination? And look, it’s not only idle daydreaming — all the achievements that the science, technology, art and philosophy can boast of, all have their origin in our imagination.

Well, the experience of Enlightenment changes all that. Strictly speaking, it turns things on their heads. Upon opening our mind’s eye, we see that it is our conscious mind that is extremely limited, feeble, and prone to easily break down. Our body, which we have despised so much, turns out to be the wondrous limitless reality — we can go anywhere, climb any mountain and hill. Our body enables us to truly live.

How to Recognize Enlightenment – Alex Bunard via The Wanderling


Is it a misconception that our thoughts are limitless

and our bodies limited?

Though the body we have the ability to achieve our dreams

And move through the physical world

The body is the tool

The linkage between thought and physical

Between dreams and reality


But is consciousness any of this?

Is it body (form)?

Or mind (thought)?

Or is it the awareness?




A viewing of both melded together

Does it make anything possible or is it the witness

Through which everything is observed?



This post is a late entry to A SELECTION OF TRUE AWAKENING EXPERIENCES PART II, and a follow-up to My Awakening Experience and Moving Forward.  My apologies for the late entry Barb, I was travelling.  I understand if I have missed the deadline.




Why is it that we can remember some things some of the time, but not all things all of the time?  Why is memory selective to the situation and the frame of mind?  Why does doing certain things trigger certain memories?  Why are those memories chosen over others?

Sometimes the memories bring pleasure, and we cherish those over the ones that bring us pain.  Still, we remember the ones that bring us pain.

One memory…  one moment… triggering the next one.

What was the first one?  And how could there ever be a first one?

An empty state

A state of emptiness

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Leaving the Shore

Lately I feel that conversations that I have with others are really conversations I am having with myself.  I think back and the memory is blurry.  Did they say that or did I think it?  Were they talking about this or was I thinking about it?  The paradox is that I often don’t feel comfortable talking to other people.  I feel more comfortable with myself.  It is hard for me to relate to others sometimes.  So, if I am not comfortable with others, am I really comfortable with my self?

This blog allows the outlet of things that I feel, but I don’t feel sharing with people in person.  This white page with black lines that appear when I press buttons on a keyboard.  I know that other people will read this, but it is a detached reading.  I don’t really know anyone that might read this in my personal life.  There may be one or two that have stumbled upon this, but I am not sure.

I don’t feel that I am any closer to a full understanding than I was when I started this blog.  I look out at the great expanse of the ocean.  The other side seems close, but it has felt close for a while.  My folly seems to be that the other side will get closer, the tide will go down, or I will walk along it far enough to a spot where I can jump over the water to the new land.  But it goes on like this forever.  Maybe it was never wider or closer at any point.  Maybe it has always been the same distance and my perception brings the other side closer or pushes it further away.

I need to reset.  I need to build a bridge, a boat, or just jump in and swim.  I need to stop walking parallel to the shore.  It gets me nowhere.  The illusion of progress.  I know what I need to do, but I don’t know how.  Or I do, but I have been denying it and putting it off.  I know I need to let go.  Of everything.  I need to trust in something beyond myself.  I need to expand my circle beyond myself and my family.

My family and I were coming back from vacation and we were dropping off our car at the rental place and catching a cab to the airport.  We were reliant upon the cab driver being at the place when we said or we would be late for our plane.  I was worrying and rushing while driving.  My wife said “It is out of your hands.  There is nothing you can do, but drive and be where you need to be.”  I find this a lot with travelling.  There are so many things that are out of my control, but it doesn’t stop me from worrying about them.  The flight being on time, the car rental place having my reservation, traffic… The list goes on.  I can set things in motion, and I can react to what is in front of me.  But really none of it is in my control.

Thankful – Abundance – Coyotes

I feel that I spend so much time looking at where I want to be that I don’t take the time to be thankful for where I am.  I have a loving wife that puts her family first.  2 smart, vibrant, creative children.  Parents, siblings, in-laws, extended families.  Readers and supporters like you.  A career (not a job) where I am paid well and challenged.  A nice house, car, stuff…Freedom.  Independence. Safety. Security. Love. Prosperity. Abundance.

Continue reading “Thankful – Abundance – Coyotes”


I have been looking externally for a vision on what I should do at work.  I have been waiting for something to just take away the responsibility and just tell me what I should do.  I spoke with my manager today about how I don’t have a clear vision of my career path.  He told me that instead of waiting or depending on others for a vision, I should create one for my department and grow it from the inside out.  I had never really looked at it that way.  I have been looking externally for direction, when the only place that I can really look is internally.

How can I find work that will give me joy?

Continue reading “Vision”


Water doesn’t react, it flows

Even a rock changes over time

Eroded by the elements

Permanence of any kind is a myth

Continue reading “Impermanence”

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