Middle Pane

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Free Will vs. Control

101_0139 (Modified%20(2))If all action and thought spring from this exact moment, then we either have the total ability to modify our thoughts and actions, or we are just along for the ride.  If all possibilities are played out then we exist as one of those possibilities that is allowing the universe to examine itself and maybe take stock of where it is in the scheme of things.  A certain awareness through a certain lens.  So at the point of awareness in the current moment we realize that all possibilities have occurred to bring about this moment, and this moment represents all possibilities from this moment.

s33said: “we” might have a grain of total control but we also evanesce out toward control which is less than total but also to a presence with less we and more they.

Through identification with the individual we assume that there is something to control.  With loss of identification and causality, there is nothing to control.  Free will comes, but it is not really needed.  Free will isn’t really freedom to make whatever choice you want.  That is irrelevant.  The true meaning is a freedom from desire or will.  Acceptance without want to change.

“Desires are just waves in the mind. You know a wave when you see one. A desire is just a thing among many. Freedom from desire means this: the compulsion to satisfy is absent.
Nisargadatta Maharaj

The more I find myself trying to control the moment, the more I realize that the control is not needed.  My attempts at control only end in disappointment when the goal is not met.  And I realize that this is because I am not self-realized.  Attempt at control is a want.  Release of control is true freedom from will.  It seems to be a balance.  Very odd.  Again, sort of the middle pane aspect of being caught in the middle.  Maybe I should start of a site of middle panes from different comic strips.

Awareness is for all times, not just when you are sitting with your eyes closed.  Do not mistake action for thought or thought for action.

Difference of Opinion

“I am not who you think I am; I am not who I think I am; I am who I think you think I am ”
Thomas Cooley, Inscriptions: Prairie Poetry

When we look to others to validate who we are, we are really looking to our own opinions of others and ourselves.  We can never know what other people think.  We only know what we think about ourselves and how we assume that others define us.  Everything known is through the lens of self experience.  Since external is internal, then there should be no reason to look external for any definition.  No more answers can be gained from external sources than through self-inquiry.

“Your whole idea about yourself is borrowed – borrowed from those who have no idea of who they are themselves.”

So many arguments are held at different levels because of supposed disagreement on belief.  Let others be wrong.  Let yourself be right.  Let both opinions exist until agreement is found.  Don’t push your agenda, only live your truth.  No matter the argument, allow the space of not knowing to reside between the two opinions.   The truth will find its way out when it is ready.  Nothing gained by force is kept.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Desiderata – Max Ehrmann 

When we compare ourselves to others, we make a definition of who we think they are and who we are in relation to them.  If we are all made of the same thing, then there should be no judgement since by judging others we are really judging ourselves.  Now this seems simple on the surface and gives us great insight on how we can improve ourselves, but that is still a limitation and an identification.  With acceptance of others, we accept ourselves, and there is no improvement or change to be made on either side.

So how do we let go of judgement?

All judgments of others and ourselves seem to come from the mind which is based on experiences and conditioning. Beyond the influence of mind there is a place where there are no thoughts..only presence. My practice is to visit that place more and more so that it becomes more of a habit and the labeling and judgments of mind stay in the background rather than in the foregound.

The Retired Seeker

It is a little confusing to first think of labels as judgments.  We describe everything with labels.  It is how we make sense of the world, of the inputs that we are given.  However, when we apply a label to a person or an object we are in fact limiting that object in time and space.  A label is not a dynamic thing.  It is applied at a point based upon our prior experiences and conditioning.  Once we label something, we cling to that label.  Even when we exchange one label for another, we are still lost in the concept of the label itself and what the label represents to us as opposed to the true object itself.  At the point of labeling, we disassociate ourselves with the object.  As the Retired Seeker points out, all of these labels and judgments come from the mind.  We may not be able to stop the flow of labeling and judgement, but we can get to the point where we no longer identify with that process.  Through silence  we begin to see that we are separate from the mind, labels and judgment.

What does this mean to be free of the constructs of the mind?

For me, it is about getting the foot as bare as one can while standing on that sand… yes it can be an uncomfortable to painful walk like that at first… the road and the reference points for living always shifting beneath the feet. But once we embrace the flow, my oh my, how amazing the dance of inner mirrored as the outer mirror as the inner mirrored can be. (How often do we see shoes eventually taken off on the dance floor? That usually is when the true partying can begin!)

Seeing M

Letting go of judgment and letting go of labels allows us to be totally free.  If we think that someone has labeled us as incompetent or undeserving then our thinking will remain along those lines and we will be tied into external forces dictating internal actions.  When we apply a label to ourselves, or we assume that others have applied a label to us, it is important to take a step back and allow the moment to reset.  Literally take yourself out of the moment and allow a do-over.  Allow yourself to accept the moment for how it is now and not how it was even just a few seconds ago.  Allow all forthcoming action to be based on the current moment and not ideas of the past.  Each moment allows us a break,  a reprieve, from action where all action can begin anew.

Every moment of your life
Is a chance to get it right
Any moment you’ve been living in
You could turn it on like a light

Monotov’s Private Opera – Third Eye Blind


“When you know who you are, you don’t look to the world to tell you. Similarly, you don’t fear other people since they cannot take anything from you. Your awareness of yourself as you really are is your liberation.”
— The Lazy Yogi

What are we trying to realize here?  What is the point of all this silence and self-reflection?  What are we gaining by this?  For me it is more of an acceptance than a realization.  We are all already enlightened.  Think about this.  Everyone that you meet, and that person that you look at in the mirror, is already in an enlightened state.  So what is missing?  Acceptance of that natural enlightenment.  The ego fights us and confuses us.  It pushes us into identification of a body and mind that is really just an instrument that we use to perceive this reality.  Would you identify with a microscope?  Or your car?  You realize that those things are separate from you, but they allow you to interact and understand your world better.  The same is true of the body and mind.  They are instruments through which you interact, examine and understand the universe.  Nothing at all to be taken lightly, but still just an extension of the self and not the true self.

“Realisation is to get rid of the delusion that you have not realised.”
— Sri Ramana Maharshi

Continue reading “Difference of Opinion”

Dear Seeker

Glad you made it here.  I have been waiting.  Take a peek through the blog.  It can go pretty far if you follow the tracks.   Come join me on this path that never ends.

Made-up Past

View from the Massanutten Lodge Area of Skyland
View from the Massanutten Lodge Area of Skyland (Photo credit: dherman1145)

You are influenced by the past, but in reality there is no past.  The past is something that you made up that just simply jives with whatever you can accept as your reality.  It contains your fears that you will relive until you overcome them.  But it also contains your hopes and your joys.  The suffering that you may have encountered has taught you a lesson.  All of this combines to make you who you are today.  Every choice made you the person reading these words.  You are alive.  That is pretty fucking amazing.  How can any of that be wrong?

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