Middle Pane

absurdism, philosophy, science, music


October 2013

When the world is coming down on me, I let it go

I got no reason for the things I do
The dealer deals them the deal is screwed
You throw your cards upon a playing table
My name is Cain and I am now unable

I got no reason for the things I fear
The things that plague me when I see and hear
A dime’s a nickel, a nickel’s none
I’ll throw myself into the Sunday sun

Jenny says, turn off the radio
Jenny says, turn off the lights
Jenny says, turn off the video
You beat yourself up ’cause you love it

Let it go, let it go, let it go
Let it go, let it go, let it go
When the world is coming down on me
I let it go

Cowboy Mouth – Jenny Says

There is no Rush, Center First

It starts at home

Develop your talents

There is no rush

Center first

Make mistakes

Get up

Do it again until you get it right

Stop hanging onto possibilities

Images of people in the past

Projected into the future

When you don’t know what to do….



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there’s no falling back to sleep, once you have awakened from the dream

There’s no fortune at the end of a road that has no end
There’s no returning to the spoils, once you’ve spoiled the thought of them
There’s no falling back to sleep, once you’ve awakened from the dream
Now I’m rested and I’m ready to begin

Avett Brother’s – February Seven


In philosophy, “the Absurd” refers to the conflict between the human tendency to seek inherent value and meaning in life and the human inability to find any. In this context absurd does not mean “logically impossible”, but rather “humanly impossible”.

Absurdism on the surface seems similar to Nihilism.  The distinction being that Nihilism says there isn’t meaning, while Absurdism says that there may be meaning, but it is humanly impossible to know meaning.  Man can search for meaning.  He may find it on a personal level, but meaning at the universal level is unknowable.  The death of the physical body represents a transcendence beyond which us inhabiting a physical body cannot know.  Anything that anyone says about transcendence of the physical while on the plane of the physical may be true, but there is no proof that you can hand to someone and say “this is it”.  So essentially, it is just hearsay and possibly fabrications of the mind.  This is my interpretation, not necessarily Camus‘.

They cut the rug that ties the room together

I temper that with it may just be our understanding of the physical that is limiting.  Do our preconceived notions of how the physical world behaves limit what we can accept?  If there was a breakthrough in quantum physics that changed the overall understanding of the universe, what would it mean?  If science shows that the physical world is interconnected in a provable way, then does that change the search for meaning?  I think that this goes to the point of absurdism that the quest can and probably must continue.

Tim Schreder

It all ends up just being labels of one thing or another.  And as long as there are labels, there is identification and separation.  I sometimes wonder if the ultimate teaching is no teaching.  I am agnostic in many of my viewpoints.  Not necessarily meaning that I don’t know or don’t want to know, but that it doesn’t really matter.  Even the quest for enlightenment is subject to question, and I can say that it does not necessarily need to occur.  Enlightenment can just happen.  Even saying that it can happen or is happening is applying a label.  Beneath the currents of perception lies a reality that just is without action or state.

The cogitations of one individual human are no more or less important than the sentience of an ocean, or the arc of a comet, or the afternoon dream of a sleeping Himalayan house cat. The quality and character may be different, but can the ideas of a man really be more essential than the blazing light of a sun? Our doings are exercises in conduct and growth. Specifics are irrelevant. It’s all yard work in the end.

I listened to this Avett Brothers song this morning.  It seems quite appropriate for this post.  Meanings are jumbled as always, but does the singer determine intent or the listener?

If you finally stop caring
Just don’t go and tell someone that does
Cause even though I know there’s hope in
Every morning song
I have to find that melody alone


In the physical world, I can pretty much get and do anything that I want, but there is a specified set of steps to get there.  If I want to be at the beach I have to: buy an airplane ticket, rent a car, go to the airport …. and then I will eventually be at the beach.  My ability to travel from here to the beach is within an acceptable level of reality.  I know that it can happen.

But all of that is just thought.

Outside of the moment.

Defining the moment destroys the moment.

You can’t name the moment.

It exists without name.

Because really you are already there.  You are already everywhere.  The mind is making up something from this moment to points in the past and future.  The events to get sequentially to this point or that point are all held within the mind.  The mind imposes limitations on the perceived reality based on past thought patterns and future projections.  But the mind says “Events have to have transpired for me to be at this point.”  It demands to stay in control.  And the more it is in control, the more that it determines what you will experience.

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Be the Flood

Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace.

Dalai Lama

The choices we have made have brought us to this point and the people we are surrounded with are a result of those choices. They too braved out into the world and landed at the same spot that we are at, but the difference between them and us is that they have found their peace in the flood. Some are the rocks and some are the water.  That is fine for them, but we see the change. They may hold opinions contrary to ours, but those opinions are really only our own self doubt reflected back at us. We can choose to change our perspective and become the flood itself.

Become the flood that destroys.  The flood that resets everything without regard to intent.   The flood that makes way for new growth.  Become the water that nourishes the land.  The water that gives life to the planet, in turn giving its life to the solar system and on throughout the universe.  Become the constant change, and don’t let anyone, especially yourself, hold you back.

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